by havanagilla » Fri Jul 14, 2006 7:14 am
oh, i will not stop thinking what I think, but talking where your words are not well received is useless and provides psychological needs, rather than practical goals. Since I am catching up on some decades of "lost time", and growing up NOW, i am becoming aware of society. Namely, looking at the range of the powers around me, who have an interest in inciting that kind of hatred, for the purpose of war, which serves other interests...well, i'd better change a subject, than "teach" :-). In fact I realized that sometimes teaching way elicits the opposite response (namely, more resistance).<br>---<br>I am thinking also that sometimes people are actualy hanging on to those false beliefs in order not to feel so slimy and helpless. Namely, if I were a 20 years old guy in Israel who needs to do through socialization (IDF service etc.), i'd rather adopt, even tactically, those opinions about arabs, cause i would have to kill some of them anyway. now killing when you don't believe in that, could cause what is called PTSD (shell shock of sorts) and i've seen soldiers like that (Vietnam is known, but in Israel, especially Lebanon war produced thousands...), they are "living dead" for the rest of their lives. TV had a documentary about one such, heartbreaking. He is really a cute guy, who was "king of the nightclubs" in tel aviv, successful designer and extremely gifted pianist. He was in reserve service in 1982, and took part in a gruesome event in a school, where "things happened" (he has blocked a lot, but remembers the final scene of him spraying about 8 suspects who were rounded up there) and later all he remembers is himself finding a piano in the school and sitting there playing for hours until he was "shipped" back to the looni bin in Israel. The guy is a living dead, and what he feels is that he is Cain, with blood on his hands and does not deserve to live so he is a looni now, also developed heart condition as a result of stress and living on the margins, his only friends are homeless people who have also been in prison for murder. (he feels like he belongs with them). The truth of the matter is, that of all the soldiers out there, he is the one who deserves to live, and live well, because he knows that what he did is murder, he said the war was wrong, he resisted but had to go along. But he is the one inflicting pain on himself and "teaching"..but this is the wrong way to teach. And I feel that doing that, is self destructive, and only proves to the others, that its not good to be humane, and that its' more adequate to adopt the rationalizations for the war, at least for your mental health, and social perks. <br>The irony with "people" is that, suppose a really bloody general or commando warrior, after committing hundreds or atoricities and crimes, if he is willing, one day to release a semi dovish, or moderate statement, will be awarded and rewarded MORE than the PTSD guy, of course, both by the pacifists of the world and the warriors. So people, as herds are a treacherous crowd, one has to guard one's soul from all kinds of extremities. <p></p><i></i>