Wombaticus Rex wrote:82_28 wrote:I wish my thoughts would start getting read, it would make my life a hell of a lot easier. Nobody ever knows what I'm talking about.
Your first post in this thread was a video from
Blazing Saddles.
On the second page, you threw a lot of questions at this Jeremy character and he answered them, in detail.
I've gotta ask -- do you have any experience in this end of the pool or are you just playing pattern recognition games with what you've read online? Because to my eyes, there's an interesting, important conversation going between Project Willow and Jeremy, and your posts have been about as helpful as Hugh's.
Wombat, there are many posts and comments by me over my stint here describing my own personal history with mental illness. I thought we had this wrapped up and I was interjecting just a bit of humor into something I bet makes some people nervous. The song popped up on pandora, as I said. It was a light hearted post. As for Blazing Saddles, I have included that clip a number of times when I post a comment to a thread I do not get and feel it may go somewhere scary. Jeremy's shit, frankly, scared me. Not because it's not true or is true, but because as for myself, I cannot tell the difference between schizophrenia and being the victim of directed and personal psy-ops. I have lived with a fear of turning schizophrenic from a very young age. I am sorry I did not make this clear. I feel I made some cases for myself and for people like me. I also do not feel that I interfered with Willow and Jeremy's discussion. Sorry, I couldn't help with the discussion, however, though I did make some comments in all seriousness, my attempts at lightening the situation were somewhat flatfooted.
In other words, I think that the ratio of importance in having a site filled with certitude and references to the likelihood of one being targeted does not outweigh the dangers it represents to those predisposed to believing it though they are of no interest to these agents of fear. While we know that certainly both exist, both TIs and schizophrenia, the difference between the two is indistinguishable to one ripe for both/neither/either to happen to them. Once it does happen, without a strong place of unconditional love and strength many people can become obsessed with a reality that does not exist. As for myself, I can certainly get far too deep into most any kind of a mind fuck, but I have learned to live with the feeling of weirdness one gets who is very susceptible to fear and panic and can enjoy it -- though it most definitely is not enjoyable. Occam's razor, love from my family and friends has shown me that this is only creativity. Those without the love I required may not wind up so lucky. This is who I am vicariously, theoretically looking out for, as I know how utter debilitating fear and confusion feels to the point of depersonalization for months on end. If you're looking out for people and trying to educate them, you don't methodically describe the same symptoms of schizophrenia while also giving them no recourse as to how to solve their stalking problem by shadowy agents with high tech devices and baffling psychological techniques.
I have played in this side of the pool, or I should say, people close to me have "played" in it. I was raised to know that there will always be someone to run to under any circumstances. As I've grown older, I tend to have taken on those characteristics myself. One thing my dad does when shit gets really bad or freaky is he laughs. A kind of nervous laugh. A laugh that says, Jesus Christ we're fucked, but what are we gonna do? We may as well laugh. At least we have each other for this short time on Earth. Apologies if humor doesn't help in tight situations for others. I can only write and converse as I do.
There is no me. There is no you. There is all. There is no you. There is no me. And that is all. A profound acceptance of an enormous pageantry. A haunting certainty that the unifying principle of this universe is love. -- Propagandhi
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