Seems like we've had this thread before. Am I imagining things?
Oh well it's fine to have it again!
I feel like I've written my answer before, so I'll paraphrase.
Son of a career Army officer who did classified work on top secret weapons development. Ever since I can remember. So I've always known the government had plenty of secrets, and there were only a few people who had access to them.
Grew up in the late 60's and early 70's. Things seemed to be progressing well back then -- protests against the war, women's movement, great music and movies, the beginnings of an environmental movement (that was bipartisan back then!), and I just assumed that everybody knew we were making a lot of progress and that progress would continue.
Then came 1980, and Ronald Reagan's inexplicable election to the Presidency. My first election. I had probably never been so shocked in my life, that this DUMBASS, this DOLT, this FOOL, had actually been elected? C'mon!
And what really got me, leading up to the election, were the debates. I watched the debates, and it was obvious as hell that Reagan was totally out of his element. He was clearly a fool, clearly befuddled, clearly didn't have a clue about anything, struggled in a very embarrassing way (painful to watch!) because he didn't have a script.
Yet the media declared him the clear winner of the debates. Were they watching the same debates I was? This supposedly "liberal" media? C'mon!
I saw a UFO when I was 4 or 5. Pretty sure I saw a ghost when I was 8 or 9. Definitely saw something mighty strange when I was in junior high. Always had an interest in the Fortean, but never really believed it to be true, always trying to explain it away, or was just in plain old denial about it, until I lived in a seriously haunted house when I was about 25. That was a big moment, because I realized that I was experiencing something, right in front of me, that I didn't believe in. Talk about your cognitive dissonance.
Well prior to that I'd had what can only be described (and I still describe it this way) as a "religious experience". Religious ecstasy. Never experienced anything quite like it. It was profound and changed my view of everything. Always belived in a "God" because of that although for a bit in college I was a bonafide agnostic/athiest science snob, but then again I was pre med and they kind of beat any spirituality out of you (which is too bad).
Anyway, 9/11 really woke me up. I fell for it at first, and knew there would be a lot of weird shit happening afterward, and that our government would never tell the truth to us about what it was doing afterward. But the psyop aspect of it worked 100% on me, for a while at least. Until Bush started saying some weird-ass shit about invading Iraq. That's where they lost me.
Colin Powell's speech was so obviously a carefully scripted bunch of bullshit that I just wanted to scream.
In fact, I knew full well they were gonna invade Iraq back in August of 2002. They didn't actually start the invasion until March of 2003. That whole time it almost drove me literally crazy. I felt physically ill the closer it got to happening. Nobody wanted to stop it. It's like the whole country was possessed with a mad desire to watch the train wreck occur.
I really think 9/11 was a bit of a magic trick, and literally hypnotized almost everyone. There are some seriously dark and powerful magicians out there. I think they literally get their power from causing the deaths of others. That's why they can't stop.
But I'm digressing .....
Growing up I always had a way of seeking out alternative things. When I was in 7th grade I wrote a paper on acupuncture. I got interested in yoga at the same time (and these both were in a small town in Wisconsin in the mid 70's). I predicted the downfall of the Soviet Union while I was in high school in 1977 or so. I didn't figure it would happen as soon as 1989, but I knew it would happen.
I was always in the upper 1% on my test scores, and my temperment type is shared by only 4% of the population, so I've always felt like a bit of a freak. Because, well, I am a bit of a freak.
I'm pretty sure I came here because of DU. SLAD was posting there, also someone named Octafish (was that Jeff?) and a couple of other people who just BLEW MY MIND. These people were so incredibly informed, more informed than anyone could possibly be from reading the usual mainstream stuff! WHERE did they learn all of this stuff? I was utterly fascinated, and, frankly, wanted to be as smart as they were!
I almost went into journalism. I've always wanted to know what "the truth" is, no matter what. I got out of premed because one day a Biology Professor and his Assistant got into an argument in front of class about something. And I realized if nobody really KNOWS the truth even in undergrad pre med biology, there wasn't really any truth to be found here, only theory, which always changes as more stuff is learned. Fuck that. There's more truth in art. And music.
I'm rambling now. I like it here although sometimes a lot of the people surprise me with some of their views, like in the recent Peak Oil thread.
Maybe we're all nuts.
But even if we are, we get close to the truth here. We get as close as we can.
"He who wounds the ecosphere literally wounds God" -- Philip K. Dick