sunny, it's that aspect of OSR that alienated me, too. But while she IS damaged, she IS NOT a troll, though I'm aware of how people might think of her that way if they don't understand her. She's contentious as hell, but if you'd survived her life, you might have ended up that way too. I just don't like to see someone like DE going after her in a forum where she can't defend herself.
One of DE's problems is his narcissistic lack of empathy--he's investigating (among other things) government mind control programs, yet he's apparently incapable of compassion or of any sort of deep understanding of the horrific damage that does to people who happen to survive it. No two human minds survive torture in exactly the same way--some make it through by becoming extremely aggressive (like OSR) and some by becoming extremely passive (like me). She has rigid "boundaries" 12 feet high and topped with razor wire...I had none at all and didn't even understand the concept until I was in my 50's. So the ones I'm currently growing tend to be flexible, which I think is a Good Thing.
I've spent just over 3 years intensively researching the trauma-based mind control programs and at this point, I'm fairly certain that
some of what OSR believes is inaccurate--a combination of disinformation and misinformation.
But she believes it. I cannot stress this enough: she's not "playing" people when it comes to passing on information--she's absolutely convinced that her info is real and correct.
And some of it is....
but some isn't. And when she repeatedly bludgeons people with it and they get understandably irate and resistant, she consistently fails to go back and recheck her sources and change her mindset.
As I work my own way through this stinking quagmire of disinfo, misdirection and confabulation, my own position on what is correct and what is lies
changes. Constantly! DE and I haven't corresponded in over 6 months and there's been enormous alteration since then in my understanding of what's going on in the programs and behind the scenes on these boards. Yet his arrogance has prevented him from access to what I've painfully learned...so now he gets to collect the hard knocks himself. Not so bright for a supposedly major intellect, huh?
As a very bright friend of mine remarked yesterday,
the only thing to which I'm wedded is to finding the truth about what happened to me. I'll read as widely as I can and consider all points of view, but I refuse to become mired in anyone else's rigid, set-in-stone theories for very long. No one's information, including my own memory, is sacred.
Everything is open to further inquiry.
LilyPat
PS I am aware of DE's calendar age--that's not why I addressed him as "young man" in that post last night. See
"Now we are six" for the reason
