compared2what? wrote:OP ED -- Do you have any guesses about who might want to fuck with you, if you are being fucked with? And if you do, does the person or entity involved have a history of comparable actions from which you can deduce what they'd typically view as a successful outcome, or whether they typically progress from violent or menacing gestures to more consequentially violent acts, and so forth? By which I mean, is there a potentially discoverable M.O?
hm. attempt to dissect in order.
i have guesses. firstly though, there is always an admittedly strong possibility that it is mere coincidence. even with having experienced other minor vandalisms recently. there is more than an average amount of crime in my neighborhood. i've also seen more than a bit of strange people doing creepy things before, so they could be unrelated incidents both towards each other and in their relationship to me, which may not be personal as i've received no hints as to exactly whom or why.
[leave a note creepy people and i'll get back to you]
it could even have been entirely a nice thing, really. i DID wake up feeling much better after having felt horrible for the last several days. maybe i was healed by a sneaky jesus.
if it was someone who was really fucking with me, i'd imagine it hasn't ended yet. i will probably be forced to wait to even be able to deduce whether there is any sort of threat or if it is merely another bizarre morning. [maybe i just stumbled from my dream into someone else's acid trip or something] the most likely guesses range a bit. i don't really know enough yet, and may never. if it was just someone odd i know doing something odd, then perhaps someone else will explain it to me in a few days. i'll be at parties for various cabals and whatnots through the weekend so i'll run into lots of odd friends of mine. some of them may even have heard something if it was less then benevolent. which is to say that one way or another, if particularly weird looking creepiness has found me again then it is likely former and/or current society friends/enemies of whom there are very many. unfortunately for me, when i was a being of much inferior discretion, i often aided some of these folks in perfecting their methods of quasi-legal harrassment. this aid has indirectly filtered to others not of my choosing due to my indiscretions.
[why i stopped cult hopping and doing non-mainstream ARG, too many sharks, but my interest in the topic is ongoing as evidenced by my participation in these threads]
further, an exception to your experiences you've described that i've encountered before, one maybe absent from your history because of lack of cabal participation: if they are scary people, and what they're doing is occult, frightening me a few times might be their only goal.
[not all creepy people are rational in the common sense of the word, some occultists even attempt to scare themselves on purpose]
which is a long way of saying that yes, i do have some guesses, some will become more obviously likely than others, as time passes, one way or the other. i am not interested in naming them here, even though i've discussed my semi-ongoing feuds with some of them here before.
there are several reasons to avoid mentioning them by name.
And if you do, does the person or entity involved have a history of comparable actions from which you can deduce what they'd typically view as a successful outcome, or whether they typically progress from violent or menacing gestures to more consequentially violent acts, and so forth?
comparable? perhaps. like i said it seems remniscent of things i'd do myself. in fact, the appearance of the masked person would have a specific significance to members of --some of-- my circles that are not readily apparent to the public at large.
[it would look funny to most people, and would be double-funny to me in some circumstances --like a wedding-- and not at all in others --like a funeral-- in the spirit of witholding evidence i am not going to elaborate on my meanings here]
the dangerouser sort: if it was a little one whose toes i stepped on, then stalking me is as bad as it'll get. [because they know me]
if it was one of the crazier bastards it is hard to say. it would depend on how much of their thought cycle i currently occupy as they tend to be rather monomaniacal. i've seen actual violence ensue before and it is always possible it could happen again. if this were the case, i can at least likely say that it would probably become more obvious harrassment [with more obvious suspects, etc] before it was escalated to outright violence of any sort. that is the pattern i've observed before.
By which I mean, is there a potentially discoverable M.O.?
as i said to extent, above, if there is a continuing pattern i should assume that there will be. there may be already. i haven't given it my full attention yet. if they want it, they'll have to try harder.
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if this is unclear i apologize. there are pieces of this i'm not really interested in discussing publicly. i owe you a PM or so anyway, so perhaps i can fill in some of the extra nonsense off the record if you're interested.
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re: my dream. if i was prone to considering such things coincidental, as i am on occassion when it'd be more comfortable to do so, i would rationalize its contents as follows in brief:
IHOP is because it was one of my last thoughts during the active part of my day. Joe mentioned it in the 911/accused-iraqi-agent thread yesterday or the day before.
i was thinking recently about the protestors at the clinic after a conversation about "old ladies" and my occassional preferred treatment towards them in the chat the other nite, as i'd met one of my favorites during a demonstration [she was a target] at this clinic.
also recently i'd been re-reading my translation of the Panchatantra, which i'd dug out of its box due to Perelandras posting of images from [sort of] the Decameron in an unrelated thread. Panchatantra is filled with anthropomorphic animals.
[ask wiki why the Decam made me think of the Pancha because that'd be too off-topic even for me]
dream solved.
except for the guy with the mexican accent.
edit: although, come to think on reflection, the nite before last i'd called off a bar trip [on account of illness] where i was supposed to meet a legendary friend of a friend everyone calls "Taco George" for some reason.
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sorry, number 28, for more dethreading off-topicness.
[Akira was number 28. any relation or just coincidence? joe and/or sonicgg indirectly made me think of that earlier tonite and i was gonna ask sometime]
i hope that about wraps it up for my episode, both in teh innertubes and in thee RL.
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