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This was never intended to be a PM to HoL, and as a public thread isn't intended to embarrass or gang-upon, but is intended as a prompt for a community show of support and encouragement to one beloved wizard among us, who's pain shines blindingly through the cracks between his many, many recent posts.

Look man, we're all crazy here. Most of us, I'd wager, either are, once were, or currently should be in some form of mental health care or another. Insanity is the only sane response to an insane system, and we are scholars of that system. Reverse-engineers, if you will. Diving down deep into a mad system is a recipe for madness. Shock Corridor comes to mind.

To begin with, and I mean predating any such inquiry... most of us here were already schizotypal and/or somewhere on the autistic spectrum. Several of us are some kind of bipolar. A minority of folks here have been through unspeakable tragedy, and for a handful, literally unbelievable abuse.

All of us are repeatedly traumatized by each new plot point in the grand unfolding of the global fascist control system.

Everyone reacts differently. FourthBase said he used to literally walk the Earth like Kane in Kung Fu, chatting up fellow genius in their natural habitats around the Ivy League. When the marathon bombing happened, he went through some serious catharsis, misdirecting that energy at his traveling companions here for a bit, but we all know deep down what it's like to go off the deep end for a bit, so we tolerated it and still love him. That's just one example...

On top of all that baseline we share in this community, you've obviously got some seriously world-shattering shit going on in your own life right now from what you've shared, calling your value system into question like shit does, and though you're a very philosophically-enlightened chap, paradoxically your ego is driving you like it just stole you from a parking lot and has no intention of surrender, so it's committing serial drive-by philosophical spree killings in the name of defending the okayness of being you as you are.

Sorry to get personal, but at this point you're crapflooding the board and it's painfully counterproductive to the ongoing curation of knowledge, intuition and analysis here. I ain't even mad, and I don't think anybody else is either, because you're awesome and we know it. You've been my personal hero in the sense of being a Domestic Daoist Homemaker-Monk, and I love you for it.

So I'm saying, for the love of catshit ananda, please get yourself to a friendly psychiatrist you can trust. Like, tomorrow. Before your head explodes and somebody notices and lacks the imagination to help you constructively. You're in a state of dangerous imbalance of one kind or another, and all helpful philosophical, metaphoric, literal, metaphysical and spiritual narratives aside, you absolutely need to straight-up chill the fuck out before you get fucked over for it in real life.

Thanks, and please be well.



(Edited to remove some personal details before Google immortalizes them, per Bruce's request.)

I love you, man!

Well...damn. I'll admit to having some "what the...?" moments recently with the increasing volume of HoL's posts--but as usual, I was too thick to comprehend what was actually going on. I seriously operate on a far lower level than most of y'all. Anyhoo, I hope for the best outcome for you, HoL.

And thanks, psynapz, for bringing it to our attention. Positive energy is sorely needed in our current realm.

you know I think a lot of you, HoL. If you need convincing that you're going to be okay then just look up. pain is transient, I know you know that but it doesn't make it that much easier to bear it in the moment. Still be good to yourself.

Thanks for the OP, Psynapz. I suspect that the personal feelings of many riggies were expressed there to some large degree or other.

HOL....

For someone like yoursef, who is probably well aware of the true nature of our mortal existence, with all of its incredible highs and lows, this is a time of challenge, I well imagine that it feels like youre really livin it just now. An exponential learning curve.

But we both know you can deal with it.

Wtf - Would it be too much to ask barracuda and bph to remove their insensitive and disturbing contributions from this thread.

Nothing like a good swift kick into the abyss.

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HoL – there are still a few good people at RI. We’re not all assholes all the time.



Be Strong.

Much Love.

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conniption » Thu Jun 06, 2013 12:50 pm wrote:Wtf - Would it be too much to ask barracuda and bph to remove their insensitive and disturbing contributions from this thread.

Nothing like a good swift kick into the abyss.

You should at least try to know what you're talking about before commenting like that, really. The Hierophant reversed is a heroic stance of non-conformity and questioning the status quo, of of beautiful rebellion in the face of convention, of seeing clearly the need for change. There's nothing insensitive or disturbing about it.

(Edited to remove contemptuous commentary regarding the shape of conniption's head.)

I appreciate this topic. HoL, hang in there.. if i feel down i imagine i'm playing a videogame set to maximum difficulty while most others have it on easy to medium & the gooder you get the tougher the endbosses stop listening to marillion!!!!!!

A firm grip is essential.



Neuron fire.

Hey HoL, quisp here. Hope you're OK. You are a great poet and magician. Stay in the game.

Songs for a hammer.

HOL is the best... yes, poet and magician.
I am not usually one to reveal any PMs, but HOL had sent me a PM asking if he saw another name on a thread. The way I took it was maybe someone is hacking his account. or sending PMs to people.
Just putting up my 2 cents but maybe there's more to this than I know.
Gotta post on a HOL appreciation thread though.