by Project Willow » Sat Jul 23, 2005 6:05 pm
Hi SW,<br><br>I wonder if I can safely share something here myself, a little more personal. I've been breaking my isolation a little bit, taking small chances. I am blessed to have landed into a community of fairly open-minded folks. So far so good, mostly acceptance. (Imagine, actually, this is an incredibly profound time...after 40 years of amateur and professional attacks intentionally designed to obliterate my very Self, my personhood, I am emerging, risking being, and connecting. It's victorious rebellion, or coming full circle back to, dare I use the word, spirit, god? The arrogance of the perps does not obtain.)<br><br>Anyway, I digressed. The difficult thing is, I don't know who knows what about me. It's possible many of the new folks in my life are aware of my history and issues. Regardless, there seems to be tolerance of difference. And how refreshing it is to have people in my life now who only exhibit the more ordinary neuroses! The icing would be to be fully "out". I don't expect it, ever, but then that is where these cyber connections come in.<br><br>No matter what, once you've gone through so much trauma, it's never going to be the same, you are never going to be fully part of the "normal" world again. I find I am learning to accept and tolerate that, and even have a bit of life in both circles of awareness.<br><br>Waves... I see water surrounding this place, but looks like more and more vessels are approaching.<br><br> <p>PW</p><i></i>