by Et in Arcadia ego » Tue Sep 12, 2006 8:49 pm
<!--EZCODE QUOTE START--><blockquote><strong><em>Quote:</em></strong><hr>I think that Roy is much like those I encountered in the second group. As I said before, he protests too much.<hr></blockquote><!--EZCODE QUOTE END--><br><br><!--EZCODE BOLD START--><strong>* I'd like advise regular RI members, <!--EZCODE ITALIC START--><em>particularly survivors</em><!--EZCODE ITALIC END-->, to stand aside and avoid the rest of my post, as it's directed straight at our new member, Mr Harrold. *</strong><!--EZCODE BOLD END--><br>__________________________________________________<br>__________________________________________________<br><br>Some years back, I became aquainted with a textbook Nymphomaniac, and I mean one that just about every guy around knew about and took advantage of. There was a very brief sexual involvement between us, but I was more interested in understanding how this person ticked(keep in mind that at the begining, I had no idea of any of these things about her).<br><br>After a time, I gently confronted her about all of it, and this was what she told me(It's not verbattum, but close enough):<br><br>She said that when she was a pre-adolescent, her mother's boyfriend started raping her. Constantly. Her mother knew what was going on, but did nothing to stop it. This persisted for several years. Eventually, she ended up living with her father, which was where she was staying when we met.<br><br>She told me me that this man raped her so constantly and so aggressively that the results were eventually she became addicted to the act(Some of the only actual words of hers I remember without a doubt were the scariest: "He fucked me until I fell in love with being raped by him") and later, it became the only way she was able to be sexually stimulated as a young adult. With this person out of the picture due to her move, she sought others to take this man's place(I was one of them, until I realized how damaged she was).<br><br>She explained all this to me in the same manner as a person describing their favorite kind of music. I had difficulties hiding my revulsion when I realized that she was using me to re-enact these scenarios with her original rapist(asking me to hit her, etc), and we very soon after ceased talking to one another.<br><br>Now...I'm telling you this story because contextually, I'd like you to understand where I'm coming from when I ask you two important questions:<br><br><!--EZCODE BOLD START--><strong>A</strong><!--EZCODE BOLD END--> - Do you see how a person like the young woman above could have evolved from involuntarily being someone else's victim to becoming her own?<br><br>and<br><br><!--EZCODE BOLD START--><strong>B</strong><!--EZCODE BOLD END--> - Did something of this nature this happen to you? Because there's something very wrong with you, and these people aren't silly ignorants that you're going to come in here and push around, mock, or try to invalidate like you have in other places.. <p>____________________<br>Some are born to sweet delight, some are born to endless night.</p><i></i>