Survivors from Utøya: First came confusion, then panic
Ali Esbati survived the attack on Utøya. But the experience left him deeply scarred.
Ali is speaking to the yound politicians about the (political) turn to the right in the neighboring country of Sweden when the troubling sms began to come in.
A bomb has hit Oslo and many are dead. The talk was quickly ended and the 34 year old Swedish debator and economist with an Iranian background, who in recent years had lived in the Norwegian capital, did not immediately return home because of the attack on the government complex.
Instead he stayed on Utøya to eat supper with members of the Norwegian Labour party youth organization AUF.
"I stood in the main building when there was suddenly unrest, people looked out of the windows. Then I heard a sound (smaeld) and I thought: people are excited and anxious because of the bombing, it is just a bad joke", he said.
Panik
Politiken met him in sunny Grønland, Oslo's answer to Norrebro (a section of Copenhagen), four days after the terror attack on Utøya, where in all 76 people were killed.
"But then came folk running from other sides, they shouted, 'get out of there', everybody out." There was panic, people jumped out the windows because they could not get through the door. I was most concerned that people not get stuck in the door"
When Ali Esbati, as one of the last out of the building, ran over the grass he looked back and saw two lifeless shapes in the grass. Three quarters of an hour later he was looking directly at the muderer, the terrifying Anders Behring Breivik, who had just begun an hour and a half massacre on the island of Utøya.
At that point no one knew what was happening or what the motives were. Ali Esbatis's theory was that someone will take revenge for what many at that point in time speculated was a possible islamic terrorist attack, to wit the bombing in Oslo.
"If it was revealed that there was an Islamic suspect behind the bombing in Oslo there would have been a lot of anger and physical reaction. Now, when it is clear that it was not Muslims, there is no physical attack against rightwing extremist groups."
Islamophobia as racism in Europe
Do you mean if there had been Muslims who were behind the bombing in Oslo, the Muslims in Norway would be in a worse situation than the rightwing is in now?
"Yes, absolutely. And i am not saying that I would wish that there is physical attack (against the rightwing extremists), that people are beaten up. But it is interesting to think about the difference.
He was unbelievably close. I noticed that he was very tall and stout. Then he yelled out.
Ali Esbati
Ali Esbati is a popular blogger on the leftwing in Sweden and moved some time ago to Oslo to work as an editorial editor for the left oriented paper Class War. Today he is an economist in a think tank. He has been strongly involved in the subject of the evolution of hatred for foreigners and the rightwing in Europe he explains.
"I myself am not a real Muslim. I am what I am. But I see Islamophobia as a concrete element in European racism here and now, and I am against it. It has an effect on my life and on the lives of many others.
He draws a line from Anders Breivik's ideology to what he callls the 'Islamophobic milieu'. It has moved from being marginalised conspiracy theories to be a very important part of the mainstream (politics). Denmark is an example of this, and Holland. And this development has also come to Norway in the years I have lived here."
Not surprised
It is still a long way from the rightwing political point of view to the grusome events here in Oslo and on Utøya.
"Yes, that is certain. The bloodbath is his responsibility, and only his. But if we have an evolution toward preventing this in the future, it is necessary for us to understand that he has been fired up by the political debate. I am not the least bit surprised that this happened."
You are not surprised? Had you imagined that an Islamic attack could look like this?
"No, not in this way, that I would never have imagined. I would have imagined less violence. And it would be targeted towards Muslims, or perhaps against some persons one sees as representing the culture-marxist elite. But that it would be like this, so calculated, there was no one who could have imagined this."
He looks like a giant
Shortly after Ali Esbati ran out of the main building on Utøya, he rang the alarm center. He is not the first who rings, they tell him. He sends an sms to his girlfriend, who is seven months pregnant, who has not even heard about the shooting. Then he waits.
After about three quarters of an hour a flock of people come running toward him. In panic. He runs with them. Many of them end in the water, at the foot of a slope.
Here they wait hidden for what seems like hours.
Suddenly he is there.
A heavily armed Anders Behring Breivik stands at the top of the slope and looks down on him. He looks like a giant.
"He was unbelievably close. I noticed he was very tall, and stout. Then he shouted.
The cry should have the effect of pacifying the group, assuring them they were safe, but no one believed him. Ali Esbati and four or five others threw themselves down in the edge of the water, behind a (pynt), to the left. Another group went to the right. Anders Breivik went that way as well.
I'm alive
Later I saw something over to the right, like a little bay. I thought it was a life vest.
It was not a life vest.
Shortly thereafter the suspect was arrested.
Two hours after the nightmare began, Ali Esbati sailed from Utøya. My girlfriend and my mother. That is what I thought about, he says.
His telephone was lost in the water, he cannot remember the numbers, so he cannot notify anyone. Only when he arrives at the hotel in Sundvollen, which is used as a gathering place, can he come on the internet and write "I'm alive" on his pregnant girlfriend's facebook wall.
And ask Facebook friends to call his mother.
From silence to ultrasound
Ali Esbati escaped the attack with two minor wounds one on the palm of each hand. But the experience has scarred deeply.
"It is so hard to concentrate on other things. Just the thought of working..."
For the moment Ali Esbati seems concntrated. Focussed. And often touched. Most when he speaks of the service for the victims in Oslo.
"When we observed a minute of silence, I stood with a large group of good people from AUF and we cried a lot. When it was over i went straight to the State hospital and saw a little heart with ultrasound. It was strange, such a great contrast"
In three months a person will enter this world who knows nothing about this.