8bitagent wrote:
I can greatly sympathize with your frustration. Even from my lack of real world experience, though my limited prism I can identify a lot of these things.
I spent an hour and a half at a large local pet store with some family, trying to help them choose a cat for adoption. Seeing so many happy families with their young kids interacting with animals, I realized I want that.
Maybe it goes against everything "RI" and "fight the power", but at the end of the day I just want that. A small home, fun intelligent wife, kids, modest work from something creative Im passionate about.
Ignorance is bliss, or "damn this cheeseburger is good and I dont want to know where it came from". But Im not religious, I personally do not believe nor have evidence that there is another life after the 80 years we have on this one. I have no strong political convictions Id die for, let alone get injured over. I just want my happiness, or what I believe is a quaint slice of normalacy.
I realize, yeah...I could wake up one day and US cities are under mushroom clouds, or theres some horrific viral pathogen plague, or this or that. But I realize now maybe its best to just focus on what one loves and live a small modest life. Maybe travel, do art, meet people. I guess Im one of those people thatd rather flee to remote parts of Canada than fight invading US/Chinese/UN/Alien/Zombie invaders.
Yeah, it's funny because when I wrote what I wrote I didn't really think about it meaning what you took it to mean... I thought about it meaning that there's just no use in trying to convince anyone to live the way I think we should live but that I'd continue on with my ideals in my own private way. .. and I guess that is exactly what you described in your post .. because that's pretty much exactly what I do.

I have convictions I would, in fact, die for - although I wouldn't have 5 years ago because my daughter was too young. Funny, that.. does that make me a hypocrite? I would die for them now because I know she could get along without me. Plus, if I knew I were dying.. well I can't tell you exactly what I'd do before I became too disabled but I do have some ideas.
8bit, IMO you should find that fun wife and live a life that involves corn mazes and fingerpainting because in my limited experience raising a wonderful, aware and happy child is THE most productive thing a person can do. I think maybe possibly I gave my girl too big of a conscience.. that wasn't my intention but I was raised by sociopaths so I kind of overcompensated, I think.
hugs to you, 8bit. You are seriously one of the best dudes on this forum - i've always, always thought so. May you be so happy - and may you know the joy of laying your head on the pillow of a family home that you've created a the end of a day that you've made great. It is a sublime pleasure. THE sublime pleasure.