MC and delusions (loads of TRIGGERS)

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Postby operator kos » Wed Nov 11, 2009 3:51 pm

LilyPatToo wrote:Re: separating the delusional paranoid sufferers from people who've been worked over by real individuals employing knowledge of mind control techniques--I've noticed that in the case of the former there's often a tendency to report very benign, ordinary encounters with strangers in public--someone brushing against them/sneezing on them/breathing on them--as deliberate assaults. And, more important for the purpose of discerning the MC survivor from the delusional, they lack any awareness that such accusations are in any way unusual.


Didn't want to quote your whole post, but good points all. I have encountered people in this field who a) seem intelligent and sane yet have remarkable MC stories, b) seem highly unstable and make highly illogical/irrational claims like you mentioned and c) people who display a little from columns a and b. I don't write off people in the third category, as some eccentricities are to be expected in someone who's been forced into electroshock "therapy", given all kinds of drugs, tortured, etc. Even some of the people who seem totally whacked out (b) might be the result of failed experiments (damn, gives me the chills just to write that).
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Postby operator kos » Wed Nov 11, 2009 4:04 pm

I hate to feed obnoxious trolls, but I think I can put this whole nature of "mind" thing to rest for the purposes of this discussion. You can get high with your buddies from Buddhism 101 and engage in philosophical wankery all day about No Mind and No Self, but such discussions hardly contribute to the topic at hand.

In the context of mind control, "mind" refers to:

thoughts
emotions
memory
behavior

Can thoughts be influenced? Obviously, it's called propaganda.
Can emotions be influenced? Ever take MDMA?
Can artificial memories be created? A flash of laser light can alter the brains of fruit flies so that they learn to fear pain that they never actually felt.
Can behavior be influenced? Obviously, it's called marketing.

When these things are done on a mass scale it's called social engineering. When they are done on an individual level it is called mind control. You may argue their effectiveness and the degree to which they work, but you can't honestly say they don't happen.
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Postby blanc » Wed Nov 11, 2009 4:04 pm

"Having spoken to several purported survivors of trauma-based mind control who had significant although not conclusive corroborating evidence, I am inclined to give these people the benefit of the doubt. Many survivors of conventional abuse endure additional suffering because of their difficulty in revealing what happened to them, and in persuading others of the reality of their abuse. I try to achieve a balance between acceptance of and skepticism toward survivors' stories, and then try to seek independent corroboration. "

This is pretty much how I approached things when I was involved in survivor reports. Those I met face to face or whose stories I learnt from others who had met them face to face had detailed elements in their accounts which met the 'significant but not conclusive corroborating evidence' test.
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Postby lightningBugout » Wed Nov 11, 2009 4:45 pm

operator kos wrote:I hate to feed obnoxious trolls, but I think I can put this whole nature of "mind" thing to rest for the purposes of this discussion. You can get high with your buddies from Buddhism 101 and engage in philosophical wankery all day about No Mind and No Self, but such discussions hardly contribute to the topic at hand.

In the context of mind control, "mind" refers to:

thoughts
emotions
memory
behavior

Can thoughts be influenced? Obviously, it's called propaganda.
Can emotions be influenced? Ever take MDMA?
Can artificial memories be created? A flash of laser light can alter the brains of fruit flies so that they learn to fear pain that they never actually felt.
Can behavior be influenced? Obviously, it's called marketing.

When these things are done on a mass scale it's called social engineering. When they are done on an individual level it is called mind control. You may argue their effectiveness and the degree to which they work, but you can't honestly say they don't happen.


Despite feeling that the meandering around questions of "mind" was not germane to the thread, I consider myself a Buddhist (or at least practice as one) and feel that you are reducing several thousand years of wisdom into a very logical, rationalist handful of sentences - ones that actually form the core of what Buddhist study confronts.

There is a great deal within Buddhism that can and has be helpful to people who have been traumatic experiences. That should not be lost here, as it stands to when Buddhism (or any spiritual tradition) is treated in a condescending way.

Maybe I have no right to ask this, but is there any chance of refraining from revisiting the debate that derailed the thread earlier? As I asked of n0x, could you perhaps start a new thread on the nature of mind rather than put him and others in the position of wanting, rightfully, to respond now that you've addressed him again here?
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Postby lightningBugout » Wed Nov 11, 2009 4:58 pm

I think one of the primary issues here is the question of reality testing. Perhaps there are a handful of trauma survivors with any significant memory impairment who rigidly cling to their beliefs about what happened to them and speak openly and frequently about them. But I've never met them.

Those I have met are guarded as all get out and all too painfully aware that what they are reporting will sound highly implausible, as well as often have great internal skepticism about what they believe to have been their own experiences. And perhaps most importantly, will be painfully able to understand how and why a good critical thinker, without a substantial amount of historical awareness, probably should reach the conclusion that what is being reported is delusive.
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Postby LilyPatToo » Wed Nov 11, 2009 5:38 pm

lightningBugout wrote:I think one of the primary issues here is the question of reality testing. Perhaps there are a handful of trauma survivors with any significant memory impairment who rigidly cling to their beliefs about what happened to them and speak openly and frequently about them. But I've never met them.

Those I have met are guarded as all get out and all too painfully aware that what they are reporting will sound highly implausible, as well as often have great internal skepticism about what they believe to have been their own experiences. And perhaps most importantly, will be painfully able to understand how and why a good critical thinker, without a substantial amount of historical awareness, probably should reach the conclusion that what is being reported is delusive.


Yes! A reality testing mindset. That's the term I was groping for in my aging mind and unable to grasp hold of :oops: If someone simply accepts every single memory they've ever had about possibly program incidents, without a great deal of internal questioning, that, to me, is a giant flashing warning sign. The inability to imagine the impact of your story upon another person is a pretty good indicator for possible mental illness.

Like you, I've never met a survivor I felt was genuine who didn't exhaustively question their own memories. When I've had my own few incidents of what appears to be "street theater" I've immediately run them by fellow program survivors who I trust and dissected them from all angles before deciding whether the event was the result of deliberate targeting with malice aforethought or not. But the wavies and gang-stalking people I've met online don't seem to do that at all. Nor, as I said above, do they seem able to accurately gauge the effect of their story upon their hearers.

They also get upset if things like "scrambles" or screen memories are discussed as possible explanations for their memories. There's a rigidity of thought/mind present that doesn't allow any reality testing at all. Good point.

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Postby exojuridik » Wed Nov 11, 2009 8:04 pm

I just watched a Mitsubishi commercial that is germane to this thread and perhaps all of RI as well. It shows three people driving along in what appears to be a corporate car-pool. The guy in the back keeps ranting on about, what the narrator describes in an exasperated tone, conspiracy theories - but all you hear from the guy is "they kept looking at me . . .they kept looking at me." The well-dressed lady in the passenger seat is making loos of increasing disgust and alarm while the driver is busy trying to find someway to quiet the loon who is in the back babbling completely oblivious to his apparent madness. Finally, the driver finds a cd, places it in the player and turns the volume all the way up which shuts up the conspiracy guy. All the while, the narrator is talking about how the stereo system in the new model vechicle is perfect for just such situations.

Now, I'm not one for getting vexed over the subliminal brainwash strategies used in stupid commericials. but the sub-text in this one pretty much sums up why I think the USA is one big fucking mind-control regime. first, you have a nice environmentally/economically correct corporate car-pool that is of course made needlessly uncomfortable by "that guy - y'know the one that keeps going on and on." In this case, as the narrator kindly points out, that guy happens to be crazy about conspiracies. however, all you hear from him is "they are watching me." This sounds like mental illness and paranoia and not generic conspiracies per se. The other carpoolers with whom you are asked to relate are visibly alarmed and disgusted (especially the attractive woman) - it is as if the guy is doing something downright obscene. Instead of addressing what would clearly be this person's incipient mental illness - the ever cool driver, just blasts some tunes and says with his annoyed glance back "just shut up dude." The narrator with a vocal wink and nod is basically telling you how great this car is to neutralize the wackos you are forced to deal with because of your responsible corporate attitude.

Okay, so this advert not only blurs mental illness, conspiracy theories and the visceral disgust of attractive professional looking women, but it also commends in a non-ironic ironic way the blarring of mediocre, undistinguishable music to shout down the freaks.

Good job Biff, may be next time you won't get stuck with that weirdo guy and can make some time with missy next to you there.

I wish I could locate the actual commercial but its not on youtube. Again, I normally don't go on so about these things but this commericial so perfectly captured (and reinforced) the disdain that the corporate media foements toward those that "aren't with the program." What is surprising here is the overt use of mental illness symptoms to sell a car and to discredit tinfoil hat types. Wonder why they feel a need to go to such lengths?
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Postby Free » Wed Nov 11, 2009 8:54 pm

Yes, thanks for getting this thread back on track, I too think it's a topic worth discussing.

I've read a little about the wavie phenomena and I'm sorry this is happening to people (when and if it is) but I'm also "sick" about the thought of being lumped in with them under an all-inclusive mind control banner.

LilyPat2 wrote:
They also get upset if things like "scrambles" or screen memories are discussed as possible explanations for their memories. There's a rigidity of thought/mind present that doesn't allow any reality testing at all. Good point.


I agree that "reality-testing" is important in the MK mind control realm. Not, of course, because we're delusional but because of the ultra-pervasive practice on the part of the perps of implanting screen memories.


Just last year I finally got to the bottom of a memory of mine that I have been questioning for over a decade because it didn't quite add up.

The first part of it was an obvious screen implantation. I had already gone through a couple of days of degradation at a torture camp in Eastern Europe, when they gave me a strong hallucinogen and led me into a sandy enclosure with two large lizards. It was bizarre and confusing and the disinhibitory effect of the drugs lowered my capacity to feel myself as separate from the reptiles. The mind f**k might have been total if it had not been for the person standing nearby who never left the room- a man with a crew cut and glasses, holding a pen and clipboard, overseeing and taking notes.

Soon after came the memory of the thing the screen was supposed to block (what they tried to do wasn't working). I was on a bench in the cargo section of a small jet, with parachutes, gear and the man with doctor bag who had been accompanying me since we left the military base in Western Europe.

After we landed (don't really want to say where we flew to) we got into a limo type car, with two men in the front ,the doctor bag man in the back and me under a blanket in the very back. Next thing I remembered, I jumped up. I had a gun and shot the man in the passenger seat.

Okay, when I remembered this (in the mid-nineties I believe), even though it felt real and I felt the healing relief and things falling into place that I feel when another piece of the puzzle is revealed, I had a lot of doubts about this memory.

My doubts were based in common sense i.e. in the country we were in assassins would be a dime a dozen...why bring me? Also, my hearing is very good- shooting a gun in such close range in a car would be loud enough to damage my and everyone else's hearing. And what about the bloody aftermath? I had no memory of what happened afterwards.

I wasn't sure about all of this so I kind of mentally swept it under the rug...until...news reports of "black sites" in the same Eastern European location and rendition flights using the same kind of jet I remembered started surfacing and got me to thinking about it again.

My therapist urged me to revisit the memory and SLOW everything down as much as possible. I did it on my own and guess what- there was more to this little excursion than I had previously remembered...when I slowed things down I saw the "doctor bag" man giving me a gun (probably not even loaded) and hypnotic commands while we rode in the car...THE "ASSASINATION" WAS ANOTHER SCREEN MEMORY. And this time I remembered what happened next. They brought me to a meeting with local spooks where they exchanged mind control technology. I had been brought along as the "show and tell" prototype of a mind controlled subject.

Oh, I forgot to say- the "doctor bag man" also gave me the hypnotic command that I was being personally accompanied by...Henry Kiss***ger.
(I am convinced that Henry K. is highly involved as a director of all this but am also convinced that they are deliberately implanting lots of bogus screen memories of him being present so that we will discredit ourselves when we remember and tell.)


Lbo wrote:

I am fascinated by the hijacking of the term "mind control" here. While there may be some overlap, please note that people believing themselves to be victims of "gang-stalking" and surveillance, etc. comprise a 100% different category than the comparatively much more metered group of folks who believe they were exposed to extreme abuse and/or MK Ultra and its children.


More than fascinated, I'm dismayed and irritated. I believe that mind control and social engineering is real the elephant in the living room, their modus operandi and the thing that "they" want to keep concealed at all costs.

This may require another thread, but I'd like to propose to the fine minds that congregate here that we do a little brainstorming to come up with some alternate and more precise terminology. The term "mind control" isn't going anywhere, but mind control tends to conjure up sci-fi and woo instead of the slew of declassified documentation that proves the existence of MK Ultra. Words and associations are part of the campaign to discredit us.

If you don't believe it try introducing yourself to new friends as a "conspiracy theorist."
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Postby barracuda » Wed Nov 11, 2009 9:06 pm

Do the majority of survivors on the board consider themselves to be victims of MK ULTRA or MK ULTRA related systems/programs?
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Postby operator kos » Wed Nov 11, 2009 10:03 pm

lightningBugout wrote:Despite feeling that the meandering around questions of "mind" was not germane to the thread, I consider myself a Buddhist (or at least practice as one) and feel that you are reducing several thousand years of wisdom into a very logical, rationalist handful of sentences - ones that actually form the core of what Buddhist study confronts.

There is a great deal within Buddhism that can and has be helpful to people who have been traumatic experiences. That should not be lost here, as it stands to when Buddhism (or any spiritual tradition) is treated in a condescending way.

Maybe I have no right to ask this, but is there any chance of refraining from revisiting the debate that derailed the thread earlier? As I asked of n0x, could you perhaps start a new thread on the nature of mind rather than put him and others in the position of wanting, rightfully, to respond now that you've addressed him again here?


You are right, and I apologize on two fronts- it was not my intention to attack Buddhism per se, and I probably should have just held my tongue rather than attempting the rebuke which I posted. I really was trying to weigh the cost/benefit analysis of that post before I hit the submit button, and please accept that I want to help rather than hinder this discussion. Back to topic!
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sorry

Postby Evutch » Thu Nov 12, 2009 12:50 am

wow, it's gettong hard fpr me to let this thread go.
LP2, i know that mental institution well.
i've been on those grounds..
i even had a family friend suggest i apply for a job there, just this last year.

good question b-cudda, i wonder my self.

especially when things happen to me that i should have NO idea of how.
in other words, how am i able to thwart or dadge being killed, in ways i would NEVER know of.
one time was lokking into a girls eyes very close, not only to see her reaction in anticipating a blow, but to see the reflection of the guy behind me, about to kill me with a large rock..
and this was AT NIGHT!
how does one DO THAT?
and they tried more than once during that session, and failed.
they got into alot of trouble for not being able to kill me that night.

exo, GOOD for you at catching that implication with the commercial. THAT is EXACTLY how it is all DONE!

doesn't take much eh?

and free, jeez louise..
i STILL have a hard time with myself worrying if somewhere in my hidden mind, i have forgotten about any people i may have killed.
the screens are THAT good.

and i have given looks and rolled my eyes at claims of gang stalking and street theatre, until the last few years, and am slowly remembering incedents that pertain.
and more.

but on control, i have seen ENTIRE schools as a teen, subjugated by intimidation by the old COINTELPRO and LEIU.
and many of the teachers and students going completely over..
but not all.
not all.
i also saw saboteurs working under the radar..
and that makes me wonder.

and take a little heart.

just a little.

ok, sorry for not contributing alot, i only know what i see.
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Postby LilyPatToo » Thu Nov 12, 2009 1:12 am

barracuda asked:
Do the majority of survivors on the board consider themselves to be victims of MK ULTRA or MK ULTRA related systems/programs?

I don't know the name of whatever it was that I was in as a child, but it was the MKULTRA era, since I was born in 1947. And there was an OSS agent in the family. Since I remember very little of my childhood or my teen years due to all the missing time and severe depression, I haven't been able to put together much of a program timeline for those years.

When I married a government scientist, life got much, much worse, but at least I remember enough to (now) be able to identify handlers. He worked at a national laboratory (atomic energy specialty) and I'm pretty certain that, like other survivors of that era, I was used in radiation experiments, since a radiologist asked me when and where I was exposed to a massive dose of radiation just a few years ago. And also because my son with the scientist died of a rare radiation-caused brain tumor. My guess is that it was still a government-run program, since it was the mid-60's through the approximate time of the Church Committee Hearings, when everything went underground--corporate or military, possibly.

When he divorced me (mid-70's), I was apparently sold several times (I remember one—possibly 2--of them) by the handler and a succession of other well-to-do businessmen. Some seemed to know what I was (although I didn't, at the time). Again, no idea who was behind it, but these guys were very high up in some very large corporations. I suspect that whatever I was in had become corporate-run by then. And that was when the (US) Mafia got involved.

As soon as I was free to do so, I fled to Europe, but the man who’d talked me into the move was arrested as we stepped off the plane at Schiphol by Dutch intelligence agents. Turned out he was a (European) Mafia international smuggler. It’s possible he was smuggling me—not sure. An agent repeatedly questioned me during the year I lived there—his main interest was in the Bilderbergers, who I’d never heard of. And I kept coming to in Belgium, with no idea how I’d gotten there or why.

2 years later, married again and back in the States, my husband was offered a fabulous job in the Bay Area, so we moved cross-country and were manipulated (by the woman executive who’d hired him) into living in a gorgeous condo building with yet another government scientist (atomic specialty again) as a neighbor. My assumption is that this was again a government program, but I also had frequent military-involved abductions during those years that were pretty classic MILABs (“alien” and military screen memories).

They ceased when all the big local bases were shut down. I still had occasional contact with the government scientist for a while and had yearly “tune-up” accessings. But then I think (hope) that I’ve mostly fallen off their radar, except for my online posting on the subject, about which no one seems to be too worried, since almost no one believes me :oops:

So the underlined words are my best guesses for who/what I was tangled up with at various points. If anyone reading this has information about any of these groups that might shed light on my experiences, please PM me. I keep hoping...

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Postby DeltaDawn » Thu Nov 12, 2009 9:46 am

Wow LP2 you are very brave! I admire how you can state the nightmares we call childhood. Guess I'm still in the stage of telling little bits but not willing to be as brave as you. The memories that tell me things like, talk and something will happen, or everyone will think you are crazy, are implanted too deeply

Anway in my cowardly answer to Barracuda....I have no memory of childhood except of wierd 'dreams' and this leads me to question whether I was involved with actual MKUltra programs.

p.s...my 'conspiracy theory' mindset leads me to believe a result of my past is gangstalking in the present....

Again, hats off to you LP2!!
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Postby LilyPatToo » Thu Nov 12, 2009 4:50 pm

DeltaDawn, I've faced each of the things laid out in that post one at a time, over a 5 year period. And it's just a bare-bones, sketchy overview, too--much less painful to do than a detailed account of any one of the situations. I think that Free's recounting of the single incident that she described above was probably MUCH more traumatic to set down. (I hope you're OK after doing it, Free--I appreciate the cost of putting together a post like yours and then placing it before the public)

And I knew I'd forget something--during the being-bought-and-sold years (1974-82), I had a "minder" who turned out to be a mercenary soldier--the real thing, not one of the hordes of wannabes--who worked often for the CIA in their dirtier little secret "actions" in South & Central America and Africa. So I did have a connection to government/intelligence agencies during 3 of those years. It wasn't strictly wealthy 'insider' businessmen and mobsters.

I also failed to mention that the main reason I'm sure I was in fact in a government program is that I have brief, horrible, but very solid memories of being in actual laboratories and interacting with white-coated men over many years and in widely separated locales.

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Postby Free » Thu Nov 12, 2009 6:16 pm

DeltaDawn wrote:
Guess I'm still in the stage of telling little bits but not willing to be as brave as you.


Hi DeltaDawn,

I think you are very brave because you have the courage to begin to look underneath the surface, some never get that far.

Also, it's up to you and no one else what you share on this forum. There are some survivors here who, after dealing with their memories and situations for many years, have decided to "hide in plain sight" and be open about their identities and locations. I'm sure this was a thought out and conscious decision on their part and I respect them for it.

I, on the other hand, avoid posting identifying details and information about myself that could be used to psychologically profile me. That's just where I'm at right now and I have my reasons for it.

Many people who post here are not survivors or researchers, they have no real security issues and are very open, which is fine...I guess what I'm trying to say is that I want you to be safe here and not feel obligated to reveal anything about yourself that you're not ready to. R.I is a totally open site that deals with ongoing troll attacks and is surely being monitored. If you get any wierd pm's or you feel that anyone is trying to violate your boundaries contact Jeff via pm.

In any case I'm very glad you found your way here.

DeltaDawn wrote:
The memories that tell me things like, talk and something will happen, or everyone will think you are crazy, are implanted too deeply.

This sounds like programming. What I mean is the omnipresent "don't talk, don't tell" "no one will believe you" "you'll go crazy" programming that all MK type subjects were programmed with.


LilyPatToo wrote:
(I hope you're OK after doing it, Free--I appreciate the cost of putting together a post like yours and then placing it before the public).


Since I remember very little of my childhood or my teen years due to all the missing time and severe depression, I haven't been able to put together much of a program timeline for those years.


Hi LiliPat,

Thanks for your concern...I'm fine...

Both you and DD mentioned not remembering childhood. This is very common in those of us who lived through extreme childhood abuse. I also had almost total amnesia of everyday events in my childhood. I was shocked when I found out that many people remember their elementary school teachers.

I began remembering incest and systematized abuse in 1988 and have been in therapy, 12 Step programs and using self healing methods and deprogramming on an ongoing basis since then. It's taken me this long to dismantle the programmed system that they had installed and assemble the puzzle pieces of my life beyond the amnesiac barriers.

I don't think that it would take anywhere near as long as it did me for someone who is beginning now. Now there are therapists who understand the programming and can help you cut to the chase. In any case, it's time consuming and tough but truly worth it.

And, this is the hand that some of us have been dealt and I guess we have no choice but to roll with it...
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